Tuesday, November 12, 2013
Friday, October 11, 2013
Instructions for Living a Life
This week I will do what all honest artists do in every moment
of creation: I will borrow from another. It’s okay. The last original thought
happened when the first Artist said, “Let there be light.” Everything since
then has been derivative of all the infinite passion and imagination present on
that youngest day. And still the universe is a bottomless well of new ways to
see. This is our heritage—playtime that never ends!
And so I start with Mary Oliver’s words:
Instructions for living a life:
Pay
attention.
Be
astonished.
Tell
about it.
Twelve words. Twenty syllables. One hundred million
practical applications—and an uncountable number of impractical ones.
Instructions for
living a life. I am tempted to add a modifier: Instructions for living a creative life. After all, we have come
here in search of The Way of the Artful
Warrior. But at the last minute I catch myself and imagine the poet left
the training wheels off her words on purpose. Maybe she is saying that life is
just life—always creative, always free, always a handful of possibility from
which we make what we will. Living is creating. Creating is living.
Pay attention.
Has it occurred to you that every time someone scolded you to pay attention as
a child, or as a dream-walking adult gazing through windows during meetings and
other Important Matters—is it possible that you were paying attention, just to the “wrong” things?
To pay attention well often means to rob from others in
order to fill yourself. Ralph Waldo Emerson said, “Thou shalt not profess that
which thou dost not believe…Thou shalt not heed the voice of man when it agrees
not with the voice of God in thine own soul…The life of the soul in conscious
union with the Infinite shall be for thee the only real existence.”
Steal back your attention from those who have questionable
use for it—sometimes even from ones you love—and pay it into seeing what poet
Rosemerry Wahtola Trommer calls “the scarlet worship along the edges”—of
everything.
Be astonished. If
the dusty yet prolific cataloguers of the world have taught us one thing it is
that looking is not the same as seeing. Here is what Wikipedia has to say about
a pine tree:
“Pines are native to most of the
Northern Hemisphere (see List of pines
by region), and have been introduced throughout most temperate and subtropical regions of the
world, where they are grown as timber
and cultivated as ornamental plants in parks and gardens.”
Not an ounce of astonishment at the way a pine tree clings
to cliff faces; turns forest air into another substance entirely—ancestral
breath and aromatic music; speaks the poems of its kind in the house of flame;
shelters the titmouse and the eagle; sways in wind like a sufi mystic; feeds
the squirrel and the beetle; pries the mountain away from itself for a long
journey to the sea; catches winter snow and holds it back to the sky in
thanksgiving; in a long life, washes in the light of ten thousand full moons.
Astonishment is hard work now. The door opens when we commit
to un-naming things. Un-knowing the facts. Un-learning “the way things are.”
Read Neruda, go blindfolded into the woods, beat a drum and listen for voices
chanting in the rhythm, be the fool for once.
Tell about it.
Shout it! Bleed for it! The world is
full of “art” that does everything right—form, color, story structure in three
acts, verse-chorus-verse, dances of impeccable perfection—and is utterly
unmemorable. It is the difference between hotel room carpet and a carpet of
autumn leaves on the forest floor, still quaking with the astonishment of
being. Speak nothing, make nothing until you are standing inside its magical, pan-dimensional,
un-effing-believable soul.
Post these instructions everywhere. Let go of the shore and
leap into the great current of living a life.
Monday, September 30, 2013
Hide and Seek
There’s something I’ve
noticed about making art. I offer it to you as a talisman to carry in your
pocket. Here goes:
Creation loves to play
hide and seek. Loves it. Like a child
who will not come in for a bath until you’ve searched the darkening yard one more
time. Doesn’t matter that you say: “I mean it, you come here this instant!” She
just giggles.
Creation loves to jump out
and surprise you.
Here’s the catch—though the
game is on all the time, it’s being played in the real world. Not happening in
TV world, or Facebook world, or video game land, or
worried-sick-about-the-bills-ville.
And since the real world
is only happening in the present moment, then to play you actually have to be
present yourself. It won’t work to go for a walk only to perform historic battle
reenactments in your mind the whole way—“Then he said, then I said, and she couldn’t believe it, and
oh how I wish I had said…” That’s the
best way in the world to squish all the fun out of a good game of hide and
seek.
You’ve got to actually be looking. Play along. Search in all
the unexpected places—like down the storm drain to see what child’s toy washed
away in a recent rain. Notice the way your elderly neighbors hold hands (or don’t)
while walking the dog every day, or the way the dog jumps at doves impossibly high on a
wire overhead. Look for your next idea through the windows of cars parked on
the street. In the colors and aromas and textures in the Portuguese dish you
made for supper from a second hand recipe book you found at a neighborhood
garage sale.
Don’t tune out in line at
the grocery store—and for heaven’s sake don’t even look at the magazine racks.
Instead, listen. Observe. Never stop peering through walls and around corners
to where your muse is hiding. Listen for the giggles that tell you when you are getting warm.
In those times when making
art seems hard and no fun—close your eyes, count to twenty,
and say "Ready or not, here I come!"
Friday, September 20, 2013
Four Clues You're an Artist (Human)
I have a confession to
make. The title of this piece is a bit deceptive, because I don’t really think
that the following four traits are limited to artists alone. I don’t believe
that “artist” is a separate species of human, a special club you have to be
born into. It’s true that some people seem to have fewer creative roadblocks
than others, and possess great artistic momentum from day one.
But I am quite convinced
of this: these traits describe what it means to be an unfettered human, free of the “get-back-in-line”
prison boss we all carry around in our heads. We all want to play, to make
things, to put on talent shows in the living room, to sing, dance, write…you
name it.
How can I be so sure?
Because I am a father. Nearly thirty years of parenthood has persuaded me that all children are artists, period. Is it
plausible to believe that our creator gives each of us a brief taste of
fantastic creative power as children only to slam the door shut just because we
“grow up”? Be serious!
Someone told me recently
that she “didn’t get the creative gene.” What blinding power is this that can
so thoroughly confuse us about who we are? Not everyone will paint a
masterpiece, but we all are destined to create art, beauty and meaning with our
lives. And it is a destiny we must fulfill—soon—if we hope to rise to meet the
challenges our civilization faces in the coming decades.
Some people already know
in their bones they are artists. The following is meant to cheer you on, and
give you the courage to be freer than ever. Others are hypnotized by the drone
of creative repression they’ve been subjected to their whole lives. To them I
say: time for a new vision of the you that is possible. Here’s a good start:
1. An artist is fluent in many languages—and only a couple of them involve words. To a
creative person there are many ways to convey meaning and tell stories: motion,
color, form, images, textures, sounds (some traditionally musical, some not;
all containing music), touch, words, feeling, food, mathematics—on and on.
These are ancient
languages that require one’s whole being to master. No wonder sitting in a desk
at school or in a cubicle at work, restricted to a narrow band of the artistic spectrum—written words
and numbers—can feel abusive at times.
For someone who is aware
of the artistic nature of existence, the world never stops creating and
speaking in new creations, inviting us to
participate and add our own brush strokes. Which leads to…
2. An artist can’t easily compartmentalize life. “There is a
time to daydream and a time to get to work.” “Doodle on your own time.” “That’s
nice, but be sure you have a practical skill too.”
Have you heard these
messages, or some variation? Do you tell yourself
these things on a regular basis? If so, you are surely an artist. But chances
are, it doesn’t matter how many times you are shamed (or guilt-trip yourself)
into believing this tripe, it never sticks. That’s because it is impossible for
you to limit your vision to only a tiny slice of the bandwidth of life for more
than a few minutes at a time.
This doesn’t mean that
artists have license to be flaky and unreliable. But how much better would you
be at life’s mundane tasks if you were free to approach them as you are—with
maximum freedom and creativity? Don’t wait for someone to give you that
permission. Imagine the perfect creative life, hold the image in your mind—then
take steps toward it every day.
3. An artist measures worth differently than
others. There are good reasons why
the phrase “starving artist” exists. First, art of all kinds is vastly
underappreciated—and undervalued—in a mass market culture like ours. Powerful
corporate interests have gone to great trouble and expense to be sure the
public gets its art and entertainment from the same handful of mediocre
merchants, period.
But it’s also true that
artists themselves tend to live in ways that cause financial advisors to
cringe—choosing time (for creation) over security, investing money in the means
to make more art instead of planning prudently (with or without a “payoff”),
and giving away their talents just for the pleasure of seeing something
beautiful in the world.
Here’s the point: Being an
artist frequently brings you into conflict with the encrusted consensus version
of How Things Are Done. It is tempting to see that as evidence that you are
doing something wrong. Ha! Quite the opposite. Accept this fact and just get on
with being who you are, doing what you love to do.
Joseph Campbell said, “If
you follow your bliss, doors will open for you that wouldn’t have opened for
anyone else.” Doors of contentment, achievement, partnership, financial reward,
brilliance in your creations you never thought possible. Doors that reveal new
and creative ways forward in our quest for more sustainable and resilient
living arrangements.
4. An artist knows that magic is alive and well. How? Because he or she has seen it in person, at
work in the moment of creation—a song that seems to drop, fully formed, from
the sky; a painting that appears to arrive through the canvas from the other
side; a dream in which characters walk with writers, telling their stories;
dancers who swear they feel like leaves on a breeze, as if they are being
danced rather than dancing.
Yes, it is possible to
turn making art into Hard Work and take it seriously as Really Important
Business. But, once in a while, even people tempted by this approach are
carried away in a transcendent moment they can’t explain. Julia Cameron writes
that we mislead ourselves when we say artists “think up” creations—because in
fact we “pull them down” from a river of magic flowing above us all the time.
Here’s the bottom line:
what the world desperately needs now—as we face multiple signs that “business
as usual” is coming to an end—is more creative and self-aware human beings who
value beauty and wholeness over utility and profit.
What we need is a world
full of artists.
Thursday, September 12, 2013
Artists of the World Unite!
Let’s get one thing
straight: This conversation we’ve begun about how to define and defend the
imaginative, creative life in our modern world is not just a topic for tea
parties and polite poetry circles. It doesn’t belong in the “Lifestyle” section
of the Sunday papers—but on the front page, above the fold, big letters.
Certainly, the subject
matters a lot to individual artists who must constantly swim upstream against
the relentless current of our cultural belief in profit, prudence and
responsibility as the highest possible ideals. (We have our puritanical
heritage to thank for that.)
As Julia Cameron wrote in The Artist’s Way, “For most of us the
idea that the creator encourages creativity is a radical thought. We tend to
think, or at least fear, that creative dreams are egotistical, something that
God wouldn’t approve of for us. After all, our creative artist is an inner
youngster and prone to childish thinking. If our mom or dad expressed doubt or
disapproval for our creative dreams, we may project that same attitude onto a
parental god. This thinking must be undone.”
Yes, it must. But not just
for the benefit of solitary creatives who deserve the psychological and
emotional freedom to be who they are and do what they do—to say nothing of a
little cultural encouragement along the way!
This is also a liberation
movement that matters to the health and wellbeing of our society as a whole.
Our collective relationship to creativity matters a lot, because it is the wellspring of vision and inspiration,
without which no nation thrives for long. Here is an excerpt from an essay I
wrote years ago called “Where Are the Poets?”
I once read a story about the leader of a revolution whose
lieutenants asked him on their day of victory, “What would you like us to do first?”
Without hesitation he replied, “Round up the poets.”
That’s because any tyrant knows, before there can be
opposing armies or mass uprisings there must be ideas that inspire and unite
the people. The basic building blocks of our world are ideas. Only later do we
pour the concrete, or design software or form parliaments. Control the ideas
and you control the world.
True change – social, political,
spiritual – falls like rain when the time is right, but only if it has some
nucleus to form around. Poets and artists of all kinds are the rainmakers of
the world. We seed the clouds with stories that offer new ways of seeing
things. We look into the shadows and behind forbidden doors and then scatter
what we see in poems, songs, novels, paintings, plays, dances, films,
symphonies or sculptures. We pull back the veil of collective denial and
hypnosis to examine ourselves as we really are.
Often, true art reminds us how
beautiful we are and that the ancient story of love is alive and well,
transforming everything it touches. Sometimes the story is not so pleasant, and
it forces us to face cultural luggage we’d rather leave in the basement.
So to all those timid artists out there, to all the repressed
artists who listened to the nay-saying critics and took their daggers to heart,
to everyone with a story to tell in a painting, a play, a book, a poem, a
sculpture, a film, a dance, a puppet opera, a song, a skyscraper mural…or any
other form yet to be imagined…
We need you! Rise up and make your art, out loud, on purpose, in
defiance of gravity, with joy in your awesome artist’s heart. Have courage! See
the world as only you can, then tell us the truth about it. Write on the back
of napkins, paint on discarded pizza box lids, sing on the subway, dance wherever
you go.
Wake up to the amazing gift you are—and pass it on. As Judy
Garland said, “Always be a first-rate version of yourself, rather than a
second-rate version of somebody else.”
Let’s play!
Thursday, September 5, 2013
Boyd's TV Repair Shop and Art School
I spent the afternoons of
my senior year in high school working at Boyd’s TV Repair Shop, located in a
1940s, sun-bleached storefront building in a working-class neighborhood in San
Antonio, Texas. The place still presented a brave face, head held high, but
everything around the middle had begun slouching toward sunset. The hardwood
floorboards were worn as bare as the day they were milled, but infinitely
smoother. They sloped ever so slightly toward a vanishing point in the back
corner, so that crossing the floor always felt like getting up from the dinner
table after a little too much wine. Window and door frames enhanced the effect
by leaning imperceptibly out of plumb.
In this way the place reflected
the proprietor, Mr. Boyd, a reliable and meticulous man who nevertheless showed
signs of having stood too long behind the counter. Keeping the current of
broadcast dreams flowing in other people’s homes was taking a toll.
It was 1978. The Bee Gees
were Stayin’ Alive on Top 40 AM radio far longer than they should. Jimmy Carter
was president, in the innocent time before there were hostages in the embassy
in Tehran to worry about. Something called “stagflation” gripped the
nation—simultaneous inflation and unemployment. Go figure.
But in those days
if—heaven forbid—your TV broke down you could still call on Mr. Boyd to fix it
for a reasonable fee. The massive things were meant to be repaired, not
replaced at the first sign of trouble. He would write your name, address and a
brief description of the problem on a triplicate invoice and pin it to the scuffed
metal clipboard hanging on the wall beside the phone. That act sent repairman
Tommy Pehl and I scrambling out to the well-worn white panel van, stocked to
the roof with the parts and tools we might need to break the logjam and get
those electrons flowing again.
Tommy looked a lot like
Don Knotts. In fact, exactly like him when he coincidentally played a quirky TV
repairman in the film Pleasantville. Tommy was the brains of the expedition. I
was there to help lift and fetch—and maybe learn something about TV repair
along the way.
And that’s where the story
gets around to the creative life and what it means to be an artist. Not simply
to make some art once in a while, but to be an artist, “balls to bones,” as The
Oracle says in The Matrix.
The fact is, my head and
heart just weren’t into learning to read schematics or the dusty entrails of television sets,
hard as I tried to pretend otherwise. I give fervent thanks for all the people
who are interested in such things. But in spite of the general appeal of
“learning a trade,” as my family advised and hoped for, it just wasn’t to be. Here’s
an example of why:
One day Mr. Boyd’s invoice
led us to the very nice home of an elderly woman with a TV in need of only
minor adjustment. It is a good thing, because all I could see was the fabulous baby
grand piano in the corner. A Rolls Royce compared to the much-loved VW bug I
was learning to play at home. The deep black glassy finish caught the late
afternoon sun flooding through the window, a warm caress the keys seemed to be
straining to answer, to complete the circle with sound.
Seeing my attraction, the
woman invited me to play. From behind the TV set Tommy shrugged and nodded
tentatively. Clearly this wasn’t on the schematic of what is expected of a
repair crew.
I sat down and performed a
song I had recently written—no doubt a forgettable and sappy love song. But for
that moment, time stopped. The technology of television ceased to exist, along
with the physics of electromagnetism and the universe that spawned it. Pure,
unformed existence emerged when fingers and keys melded into sound, when voice
and words climbed the music like a staircase leading home.
When finished, I opened my
eyes and saw my reflection in the old woman’s expression. A lifelong lover of
music, she had a look of quiet recognition, like she had heard her native
language in the marketplace of a distant country. Tommy’s eyes never left the
task at hand—an act of deep integrity, a reflection of who he was. Mr. Boyd
charged his customers by the hour, after all, and he wouldn’t waste a minute of
it.
Back in the truck he said,
“That was wonderful.”
The scene has repeated
itself in my life too many times to list—delaying a furniture delivery I was
responsible for to watch a late summer wind push ocean waves across a field of
amber wheat; ignoring my “legitimate” work because a story or a poem or a song
has latched on and won’t let go. To this day I am easily distracted by shiny
things. I tend to prioritize life in ways that make the world’s bean counters go
crazy—God bless them, every one!
But there is a difference, now
that I’m past 50, and one I highly recommend for you too, if you recognize
yourself in this story: I’ve given up trying to be anything else or live any
other way—not even for that most revered cultural Holy Grail: a steady
paycheck.
I am an artist, you see.
Can’t be anything else.
Next week: (No really!) the five traits of being an artist.
Next week: (No really!) the five traits of being an artist.
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